Somethin' I'm well aware of. With everythin' with Lestat. [He wasn't going to point out that Lark was out there with some bloody ideas. Head of the would be mob.]
That's one person and one person a mob does not make. That was a lotta people trying to put out some very specific fires. I might not talk a lot on the network, but I do try to keep an eye on it.
But we have to think about worse case scenarios and be prepared for them.
I don't know, Malcolm. Anything. Everything. Neither of us have any real idea of how this works. You can't provide me any real assurances; you've been.. for a handful of days.
This isn't going to make some kind of extra trouble for me or you. When I asked about staying with you it was about feeling unsteady and wanting the emotional support, not some sort of physical protection, hiding behind you.
Because you throw in a dash of 'He's supernatural' and folks start getting real strained about what mistakes can be made. This might be a space ship but it's still got some of the small town mentality. Islander syndrome.
I'm not saying it's gonna happen, I'm just sayin' it could.
One of the reasons. The other bein' that you shouldn't change yourself on a fundamental level for connection. It suggests that you aren't good enough as you are doin' your best and I don't like that.
If you were weak or incapable, I could maybe understand it a little better, but you're neither of those things.
It's not just the connection. I'm broken and I've been broken for so long I don't know what it's like to be whole. I went to a new school for my last year of high school. A prestigious boarding school. It was the first time I went by Bright. I wanted to have one normal year, where people didn't know who I was so I could just... be me. But I am this.... wet paper bag of broken pieces. I want to try something else. I want to see what it's like to be something else.
[Raylan just looks at him for a moment, face full of sympathy and his own kind of understanding. He could understand wanting to see what it's like to be something else. Maybe he just put a larger value on the loss than Malcolm did. Raylan would be scared of what he would become, Malcolm is excited and hopeful about it. But Malcolm wasn't capable of the same cold murder that Raylan had long been used to.]
I hope it's everthin' you ever wanted. [He doubted it would be, but the sentiment was nice enough and he meant it.]
I don't think you're a wet sack of broken man but what I think doesn't matter, Malcolm. You're the one feelin' it.
And I'm a little tired of everyone assumin' the worst of what I mean when I open my mouth on the damned network, but that doesn't have anythin' to do with you.
[Raylan watches him back and considers asking for more scotch. Asking for validation wasn't something he really did, but he found the question falling out of his mouth before he could stop it.]
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[It didn't change the fact that he cared about Malcolm.]
We'll handle it.
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[Raylan took a drink and stepped back to lean against the far counter.]
Just do me a favor and don't go stirrin' up any mobs to my door, huh?
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But we have to think about worse case scenarios and be prepared for them.
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I'm not saying it's gonna happen, I'm just sayin' it could.
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If you were weak or incapable, I could maybe understand it a little better, but you're neither of those things.
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I hope it's everthin' you ever wanted. [He doubted it would be, but the sentiment was nice enough and he meant it.]
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'Hate' would be a real extreme reaction. Only person I hate is Arlo. And Hitler, but I think that's a given across acceptable society.
Whatever it is, you're not alone. [And he's sure they could figure out a way to undo this if they needed to.]
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And I'm a little tired of everyone assumin' the worst of what I mean when I open my mouth on the damned network, but that doesn't have anythin' to do with you.
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I always feel reassured when you pop up on the network.
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Why's that?
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