"Yeah," Maggie agrees, wry and quiet. "James seems like a more
likely point of contention, because a marriage is another thing entirely. A
big gulf of missed knowledge. That might blow up when she finds out, and if
you'll forgive me saying, it'll probably blow up worse if she finds
out in a flood or something than hearing it from you. This place doesn't
like to leave us our secrets. You've got a month or two before the next
flood, so you've got a little while to brace yourself and make that
decision."
Which isn't her point here and now. "But Neal isn't that. You're allowed to
want people who make you happy, sweetheart. And in my admittedly biased
opinion, that's a good thing for a kid to know about her father. She sure
didn't seem like you being bisexual would be a disappointment when she was
pumping Norton for information and asked if you have a boyfriend. I'm not saying you have to come out to her, but there is an emotional cost to staying closeted. And I'm concerned again that hiding things is more of a hazard to your relationship than sharing them."
Maggie was right and Raylan hated it. Hated everything about this situation, hated everything about himself that made it more complex by daring to explore himself a little more freely. Why couldn't things just be okay?
Was he allowed that? He wasn't sure. Not really, not if he was being honest with himself. Which he didn't like doing unless he had to, it was uncomfortable.
He hums a note, knowing he couldn't let the silence stretch on too far.
"She's mad that I'm not home more-" Apropos of nothing outside of him being a general hazard to their relationship. "Did you see what Fitz said to her? About bein' married to me-" He huffs a crooked grin. It had been a high point.
Maggie pulls Raylan into her and kisses his temple. One advantage of
sitting in his lap is that she can reach to do that. Ultimately, it's his
choice. She's just concerned about floods taking that choice from him
before he gets a chance to make it.
But then she'll laugh when he brings up Fitz. "I love him, but he is
completely fucking ridiculous on a regular basis. I enjoyed reading his
conversation with Willa, yeah."
He smiles softly at the kiss. It was sweet and he would never get tired of the soft affection. He, like his daughter, was hard pressed to ask for it, but accepting it from trusted people was never a problem.
"It's interestin' to see him bounce off someone younger that doesn't get pegged with so much 'You're an adult, sort your shit' attitude like he gives the rest of us. I'm gonna be curious to listen in to whatever other conversations they might have. Wish I could be a fly on the walls for the ones you'll have with her too, I'm sure."
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"Yeah," Maggie agrees, wry and quiet. "James seems like a more likely point of contention, because a marriage is another thing entirely. A big gulf of missed knowledge. That might blow up when she finds out, and if you'll forgive me saying, it'll probably blow up worse if she finds out in a flood or something than hearing it from you. This place doesn't like to leave us our secrets. You've got a month or two before the next flood, so you've got a little while to brace yourself and make that decision."
Which isn't her point here and now. "But Neal isn't that. You're allowed to want people who make you happy, sweetheart. And in my admittedly biased opinion, that's a good thing for a kid to know about her father. She sure didn't seem like you being bisexual would be a disappointment when she was pumping Norton for information and asked if you have a boyfriend. I'm not saying you have to come out to her, but there is an emotional cost to staying closeted. And I'm concerned again that hiding things is more of a hazard to your relationship than sharing them."
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Was he allowed that? He wasn't sure. Not really, not if he was being honest with himself. Which he didn't like doing unless he had to, it was uncomfortable.
He hums a note, knowing he couldn't let the silence stretch on too far.
"She's mad that I'm not home more-" Apropos of nothing outside of him being a general hazard to their relationship. "Did you see what Fitz said to her? About bein' married to me-" He huffs a crooked grin. It had been a high point.
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Maggie pulls Raylan into her and kisses his temple. One advantage of sitting in his lap is that she can reach to do that. Ultimately, it's his choice. She's just concerned about floods taking that choice from him before he gets a chance to make it.
But then she'll laugh when he brings up Fitz. "I love him, but he is completely fucking ridiculous on a regular basis. I enjoyed reading his conversation with Willa, yeah."
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"It's interestin' to see him bounce off someone younger that doesn't get pegged with so much 'You're an adult, sort your shit' attitude like he gives the rest of us. I'm gonna be curious to listen in to whatever other conversations they might have. Wish I could be a fly on the walls for the ones you'll have with her too, I'm sure."