Text Overflow: Scarecrow - The screams you're hearin are the wrong kind

[tinstar]

[Continued from here]

They'd set a 10 AM meeting time and while this wasn't Raylan's office, being in New York for reasons he wouldn't tell anyone, he'd managed to talk the local Chief into letting him borrow a conference room with a promise that Art Muller would buy him a high shelf drink next time he was in town. He was sure Art would be fine with it.. After a little cussing and swearing at him. The case he had actually been on was still active, but Raylan was waiting for someone to come in from overseas in a few days.

Set with a couple cups of coffee, Raylan (and his hat) looked over Crane's file as he waited for the man to arrive and be shown up. Crane hadn't been lying about his record; a point in the man's favor, but Raylan wasn't sure about him yet. The morning was going to prove to be interesting, if nothing else.

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[hosannas_of_anguish]

He chuckled at that, maybe not the best response and yet, he did. "You seem to understand my predicament more than I do. Yes, I have to actively keep myself out of danger. I have to remind myself that I should feel the emotion, but while making my formula, i broke a few beakers along the way. I know exactly what my formula does, and after the third time, it no longer bothered me. It was not on purpose. I miss having that instinct. It is my lifes work, and it deprived me of the emotion I knew best. However, what is done is done. I cant erase that."

[tinstar]

Raylan bobbed his head back and forth. "I pay attention, now and then. Makes you an unreliable source though, for danger assessment. Sure, you might have the facts of the matter, but that much calculation.. doesn't seem like it leaves a lotta room for the the weird ass shit the rest of us try to pull.." Himself included.

"Let me ask you somethin' - what started this whole.. formula thing? Why get rid of fear?"

[hosannas_of_anguish]

"It is expected, with your occupation and all." He admitted with a nod. "And yes, unfortunately you are correct, my response to normal stimuli is not what a normal mans would be anymore. I find it makes it easier for moments like these, to no longer care what happens to oneself." He added with a shrug, sitting back again after Raylan's question.

"I used to be afraid of everything, Marshal, but mostly, terrified of all the horrid things people said to me, about me, around me. All of it. The city was supposed to be different. A place where no one knew my name, but just a new class of bullies, none of my accomplishments mattered. A professor in a cheap ill-fitting suit? Please, even my colleagues would torment me day after day. I started down this path to cure my own fear, I went to far however, but I have helped others, no one will take as much of the formula as I have pumped into my own veins. I destroyed my fears, why not help others?"

[tinstar]

Always nice to hear someone agree with him, validate his gut, but Crane's position was a dangerous one. For both of them.

"Maybe that's what I don't understand - Your education should have provided you some tools, or at least an understandin' that some people will always have shit to say. People are assholes," Raylan said, face pinching in his confusion. "Always have been."

Do you know how much shit he got for the hat and cowboy boots?

"Normally out of their own issues. Got little to nothin' to do with you or how well your suits fit."